I don't want to wait no more

People walking holding hands, friends telling you stories about how their boyfriends treat them, seeing people from the same class get together and become a couple - all these makes you question yourself: Am I not doing well enough to get a significant other too? :(

I don't know who my future HIM will be, I don't know where will we meet, I don't know how we'll meet. All I know is, I can't wait to meet him and I hope that day comes soon. =(

He's History - Ba Bye

It's funny how one second your heart is still aching and the next you're like 'Meh...never mind'

Haha well that's me.

I remember listening to 'Beautiful Things' by Tori Kelly one morning, thinking I was already over him, but apparently not. I kept missing him that day and was feeling really sad 'cause that should've been us!! (Yes, it's another Tori Kelly song haha) In the end, I couldn't resist but WhatsApp him and told him I miss him. He says he misses me too. But due to certain complications, his actions and words kept me hanging halfway, not knowing to get over him or to keep holding on. So to put an end to my misery 'cause I've got shit tons of things to do, I asked him 'Do you still love her?' He said yes. 

Well okie~~ that was all I needed to know. I closed the chapter on him. I've told him that if I choose to walk away, I won't look back. "Are you sure you're not going to regret this?" He says he knows he will. *rolls eyes*

Well too bad for you hon, you had your chance and you blew it. I'll be the best thing you never had. Boo hoo.

After I decided to forget about him, I did. Only 24 hours had passed and my friend was like 'Don't miss him anymore oh...' I'm like 'Him who?' Hahaha... Can't believe I spent all those late night hours talking i-don't-know-what to him instead of sleeping. Dude, you just wasted my youth!

Letting go of the things that aren't good for you or that are just a waste of your time, is AWESOME.

Now he can kiss my pretty shadow goodbye cuz I've made him history. 

Boy, you ain't in the present no more and you definitely not earning a spot in my future.

See ya never. 

My Heart Still Races

I was at the mamak stall eating dinner with my housemate tonight. I was seated facing the street. Just when we were finishing our food, I saw a red Ford Fiesta drive into the lane that leads to my hostel. I thought, "Could it be him?!!"

I had left my phone and my keys in my room because I asked my housemate to bring along the keys. I'd only brought enough money to buy food. "What if it's really him?! What if he's here to tell me he's broken up with her? Is it possible? What if he's calling me right now?? What if it's not him after all?"

I have nearsightedness so I couldn't see the car plate number. But the car was waiting right in front of the guard house. My heart was racing at this point of time. "Shall we go back now?", I asked my housemate. Then I proceeded to pay. Out of all the days possible, my housemate took what seems like the longest time ever to pay his bill! 'What if he's calling me and I don't know and he gives up and drives back home??? Oh my goodness...is it really him?'

Finally my housemate is done paying and we walk back. I scanned the perimeter for his car. I couldn't find the red Ford Fiesta. 'When did the Ford Fiesta leave? Or maybe he's gone inside? Nah...that's not possible...Is it?' With still some hope left in me, I searched for his car in the visitor area but no. No red Ford Fiesta cars.

'I knew it.'

My heart still races and catches hopes out of thin air for you. No matter how small the possibility because it still could be possible.

Dreams~~

Everybody's been hoping and searching EVERYWHERE about where will their destiny end... When will their journey start to take off and live their dream life... However, life sometimes seem to LOVE play around with your dreams and hopes.. Everything goes OPPOSITE of what you wanted and wished for... So now, you've gotta work your ass off to get to where u wanna be.. While some other people of your same age, are just hanging around having the time of their life...enjoying EVERYTHING you'd love to.. So, let us ALL work our ass-es off for our dreams and live better than those who never really needed to do anything in their life~~ GAMBATEH!!!! =)

疯狂的一天

人家说：人越长越大， 就越来越懂事、成熟。。。
但我们5.1班就刚刚好相反^^
今天，9/11/11，是我们上课的最后一天~~
几天前，我们还'回忆'儿时游戏，今天很荣幸的。。我们班男生因为害怕人家忘了他们的存在， 所以在这最后一天把makmal Physics 的水龙头弄坏了！！！
在食堂帮Roger 庆生日、唱我们班自己一次又一次改和编的歌曲， 在食堂留下我们的脚印。。。
知法犯法。。。hehehe~~带电话、带相机、偷偷的把别人的歌改成自己的。。。(听说他们都会写上'版权所有的wor~~) ><"
从来没想过我们会自己编歌曲， 一起排练，唱出自己的特色！！！
5.1班， 我真的真的永远都忘不了你！！因为你让我尝尽甜、酸、苦、辣！！
Chu KC 被我们气到同我们'志同道合'， 马来文老师气到将去、讲出"Siapa mau dengar, dia dengar...Yang tak mau, buat kerja sendiri, jangan bising"..
不知还有谁会像我们酱专门气老师(虽然不是有心的=P)
Anyway, 5.1 班， 我爱你！！！！！ <3

A Day Before Holiday, A Day That We All Found Out What We Mean To Each Other

First period of the day was P.E class... Everybody's in the sun playing like they've never before...
*Cringgg* Second Period now.
"Who's up for childhood flashback??"
Within a minute, we were all out of our classroom. Childhood games like 'a.e.i.o.u., 一二三木头人, xx点兵, and apple/orange' were what we revised, in a special way. I never knew that the-once-naive games would be a totally FUN, CUTE and UNFORGETTABLE memory.
Days near to SPM = Days near to a whole new chapter in life
No one holds us back anymore cause they trust us to do the right thing...=>no teachers entering our class
"那些年、朋友、伤离别" made my some of my classmates cry。。。
The idea of crying never came across my mind but she kept crying and made some tears fill up my eyes too...T^T

Friends are those who accept your past, supports your present and encourages your future..

and those are EXACTLY what we do to each other..(except for the fact that we do it in a different way - perli-ing) ^^

<3 you guys~!!!
Long live 5.1!!!

The Pressure's On

I never thought that the girl who was always carefree, would one day face pressure...

Another 60+ days (or 60? I don't know...Didn't really take note.. .>_<") and she'd be sitting for SPM...

Suddenly, she feels that everyday is a packed day..

No time to lose, but yet no time to gain...How did she spend all those years before this one?

She can't recall...

Well, I think you're smart enough to know who I'm talking about...

That's all for today...bye~ !